Being happy is all I really wanted anyway and now I can finally be that

we made it to gatlinburg.

All I want is for her to be happy.

If Im not what she wants then I will be ok.

I just know that I love her.

Seeing her with someone esle hurts but I know it hurts her to see me with someone too.

I just want her to be happy.

All I can do is smile when I see your smiling face.  your so sweet and the one that I want to love.  I just wish that you could see what I see in your eyes.  I say that your my friend, but I want more than that.

Ok so I was laying in my bed last night around midnight and thinking about Treyvor ( the guy that I am talking to) and I heard the song REALIZE by Colbie Caillat and it made me think of him. We come from two very different worlds but somehow fate brought us together and we seem to very happy.  Now if I could only convince him that we should be together.  We talk constantly and if we aren't at school talking between classes or at lunch then we are at home talking on the phone.  

I was supposed to be moving to Tennessee with my mom over the summer but  I just can't bring myself to leave him here alone.  He is 17 and so am I but he is in a lower grade than me.  We seem to really get along and we are both happy.  Or at least I know that I am. He makes me want to talk to him 24/7.  When he kisses me, I get butterflies and they feel great.  I never thought that I could find another guy that did that to me since Preston but I was wrong.  All the time that I suffered through the break up, Treyvor was always there for me.  He knew that it was meant to be but I guess he just wanted me to figure it out on my own.  The guy that I need has been right under my nose the entire time just waiting for his turn.  I went through all the wrong ones and finally got to the right.

Yay for me. 

Im falling in love with him and he don't know it.